taylor swift can suck it

God , I hate Taylor Swift.   I've never met her, but I just despise her.  Her songs stick in my head like flies on shit.  I'm much to old to be walking around singing " we are NEVER EVER EVER getting back together".  You know what I mean?  It just makes me sound like a creeper. 

run, baby, run

My Garmin said I ran the lake in 34 minutes

10 minute miles. Not too shabby.

I had to poo…

that is why I ran faster.

must find a better technique to get myself to go faster or farther.

or I need a run with more potties

xo

m

kid fashion…the world does not always stop for evil

So many things in the world are out of control, but most kids don't realize it.

They go to school, play with the dog, and the world does not stop.

Today, I am thankful for that

 Olive Bijie 8 years old and quite the fashionista

 Bubba and Foxxy Brown

Bubba dressed for the honors awards

first night out without a hat

i have slacked on uploading pictures because I just can't figure out what to do with them

or how to organize them

I need to get on top of that

I really do

xo

m

I am an RN…read this if you have anyone who may ever be in the hospital.

I am an RN.
You may or may not know what it entails.  There are so many different facets to being an RN.  I work on an acute care Telemetry (heart health) floor.  I take care of many different people, but to sum up the group as a whole , so that you will understand who my patients are, I will describe them….I'm sure we all have a "Heart" patient in our families.  They are the woman you see in front of you at the grocery with ankles the size of melons, the diabetic who often forgets to take their insulin, the person who smoked their entire life and now can't walk to get up and down the stairs, the morbidly obese…and the person who has chest pains while shoveling snow…..oh, and your gramps who has had open heart surgery, stents and angioplasty.   I am the nurse.
I am the nurse who you meet when you walk into the room and say," well, my gramma lives alone and still drives"  ….well….maybe she shouldn't.
I am the nurse who has to perform chest compressions on your 89 year old "perfectly healthy" mother, whom you want EVERY THING DONE FOR….even though 3 hours ago your mother told me she just wants to go to Heaven and be with all her friends.  You do realize when you make this decision for your perfectly oriented elderly mother/grandparent, just because you are the power of attorney, it is selfish?  Do you realize the first compression of CPR I do on your mother is going to crush every bone in her chest?  it will…it breaks 30 year old men's chests walls.  Then you can blame the RN for killing your mother.  We are not being "rude" when we suggest a visit with the Palliative Care team.  We are there to help.
I am the person who leaves my family for 14 hours to take care of your family.  And yes, I do get paid….but I do it because I love it.  I don't get paid enough, honestly….you tell me how much someone would have to pay you to let them poop on you or throw up on you…or how about punch you….?  I bet you couldn't come up with a good price.  I also don't argue when I have to leave my family to take care of YOUR family on a Holiday…and you know what?   I will also sit and chat with your family member, keep them company, while they wait for you to "show up" right after you have holiday dinner with someone else….because, hey…it's a Holiday, and grampa will understand…he doesn't feel well any ways.
I am the person who helps your family member get to the bathroom…I wipe their bottoms and clean up their messes….I smile and say, It happens…and it will happen again…it's ok.
I am the on who keeps your family member from bleeding to death after they have a procedure.  It is scary every time I do it….But do I say that?  NO…I use my skill, my smile, my strength and I hold pressure….I tell them its hard for us both.   WE will get through it…and we do.  I have never had anyone "pop a femoral" after a cardiac cath….Does the family see this ?   no.
I have caught people and eased them to the floor….because they insist on getting up , even though I say…you are not quite ready to get up…you are weak and we should wait a little longer.  I ease them to the floor, because I am 5' and 100 pounds and most of my patients are over 250 lbs…if not bigger….but I have NEVER let anyone fall and hit their head…I risk my safety for their safety…I never even think about it, until afterwards.
When you have a grandparent who has Alzheimer's or dementia and needs care….I take care of them…I keep them safe.  I jump up and down all night running into their room to tell them it's ok.  I have been punched, scratched, pushed, yelled at and spit on by these patients…and when I call the number on the chart to ask a family member to come in before we have to put this patient in restraints…I really don't want to hear…can it wait til after I get the kids to school?  Sure….but don't be upset when your gramps has been sedated and tied into a 4 point harness for his and our safety when you could have come from 10 miles away and held their hand.  He doesn't know me…he knows you.
I am the person who watches your family member pass into the next part of their life.   I turn on nice music and hold their hand and help them be comfortable….where were you?….oh yeah, you had to just step out to run some errands.  I cry…just like everyone else…. I clean them up and brush their hair before you get back so the greyness in their face will not frighten anyone…death is grey.
SO>>>>>>>
the next time one of your family members goes to the hospital, think about this.  Think about what that RN is doing for the time you are NOT there.  I would rather not hear, ever again, from my manager how someone did not like my personality…or that I was unprofessional because I asked them NOT to get their family member out of bed without our help…they may fall.  Don't tell the RN, what to do with PICC lines and IV poles…they know…and sometimes there are many more important things going on with your family member than Oxygen tubing.  Don't attempt to get that nurse in trouble because you don't care for the way they breeze in and out.  Think about it….One day you may be a patient…

xo, m

Easter Goodness

We have been busy and NO ONE wants to do anything except stay home and play with this:

 Her name is Foxxy Brown 

and she came from Mile High Husky Rescue….we are very much in love.

Eddie is exhausted from all the playing he is now required to do with the puppy.

For Easter Olive and I tried some natural egg dye.  We did purple cabbage and then yellow onion skins.

look how pretty!  That is my hand, the eggs came from a local farm and were huge.  We dyed some brown ones too…which I always think looks cool.

I was off for 3 days, which was nice, but missed my teen, because he always goes to his Dad's for holidays.

it's ok, we will survive.

The weather was warm, but snow is in the forecast for tomorrow.

Was thinking of planting some spinach and lettuce…I think they can tolerate some snow.

I'll go check that out

Hope your spring break is fabulous

write ya later

m

20 day later of Alopecia….Bald

Just so you know…here it is.  20 days after the last post.

If you know any other bald young boys, send them our way.  we could start a gang.

Wait a minute, I think we had gangs like that in the 80's.  

Well, this would be the non combat boot wearing type of gangs

hahaha

xo, 

m

alopecia is a cruel friend

Alopecia sucks, update ..no hair

It pains me to post the pics, but I want other people to see that it happens, it happens quickly and they are not alone.

Although Ilin B has not come to terms, nor most likely will he ever come to terms with it, he still lets me take pics for documenting.

People always tell him to "just go bald"  

He hates it.

As he points out,  this is not "normal bald, this is odd bald" 

 Here is one of the only patches of hair that grows on the back side.  The front he has not cut for 3 years.

 You can see how smooth it is….you can also see the Native American he has in him with that nose.  Funny how 1/4 of Cherokee, or whatever it was passed right down from his dad.

 Any other small hair growth is white and fuzzy, like duck baby feathers.

He told me last night he hasn't shaved his head in 4 months, and this is it.

So the Dr was probably right.  He is heading to Total Alopecia.

This was less than 3 months ago
click the link

Well, I'm thankful for Ilin Blue that beanie hats are in style for this age group.

Not sure what he will do for any other age.

I would say: This too shall pass, but…I think I'll stick with:

It is what it is

write ya later,

m